today i have felt tormented. i think it’s from reducing the pain medication i heavily relied on last week during my tonsillectomy recovery. but still that chemical imbalance is not fun and is a very real, valid disturbing thing to deal with.
so i looked up tormented in emotions. a website said it’s part of grief. this is probably incredibly relatable to my life.
i am leaving this country so soon. i can’t believe it, and yet the time is slipping by slowly as i have all these recovery days free. i started packing. that was scary. i have so much crap, but crap i want! ugh. having a suitcase full of clothes and not much else is a pain.