i’m so ….

nathan and i talked. he said that this isn’t what a relationship should be like. that you should be able to communicate or give warning that something was so upsetting. does that mean he would go to counseling? does that mean that he would change? does that me that i need to? what are the […]

in the wake

in the wake of the earthquake i’ve caused i’m going to write about all of my realizations. value. i didn’t feel valued or prioritized by him. i can name at least 5 things that are more important to him then me. this is the most terrible feeling, since i was constantly thinking of ways to […]


i had a really rough day at work yesterday. i don’t feel like rehashing it here, but it definitely brings up my next point of contention. nathan. yes. him again. we decided to get back together from across the ocean a few months ago. i knew at the time that this wasn’t the wisest decision, […]

i haven’t written in a while…

things that are different about oz: no driving – i love it. i never realized just how much i hated it until i didn’t do it. now i just sit on trains and read. reading – the internet/netflix/websites are different here. more commonly, i tend to read in down time. or drink, whichever comes first. […]